The last few months of 2012 have flown by in a crazy whirlwind. I've fallen off the blogging wagon. More importantly I've fallen off the diet and exercise wagon. Life has taken priority. Which is a lame excuse I know, my health should be the priority at all times. We've been dealing with other health issues in our home. The diagnosis of a long-term chronic disease, rheumatoid arthritis, has had us reevaluating a lot of things about our health, but for the past few months the most important priority has been on dealing with the pain. Now that he has the pain under control we can start in on the important things, following the healthy and active lifestyle we started up with earlier this year is going to become the priority, with the ultimate goal of healing through health. It's been a rough road for us and I've been continually impressed, strengthened, and motivated by Ross' courage and perseverance through it all. He has been dealing with a pain that I can't even begin to comprehend, but I can see it in his eyes and hear it in his voice how absolutely unbearable it is. It's been hard coming to the realization that it's something that will be a big part of how we learn to take on our future together, and something that we will likely always be dealing with. His rheumatologist is throwing around the "R" word... remission... and is hopeful that since we have started treatment young, when there isn't evidence of joint damage yet, there may be a point when he is symptom-free. We'll be starting a new medication, and are apprehensive about how it will turn out, but again hopeful. We've been to the rock bottom and only in the last few weeks have we been able to see the light at the end of the tunnel. But it's there and I'm so happy to see it. So now that we know what's going on with him, the next thing to do is kick up the health into high gear! We are so ready to start fighting this.
Needless to say my mind has been on full-throttle lately. I typically thrive under stress but I've been trying to mitigate my work load for my sanity lately. My transition to Portland has been smooth from a work perspective, and I was excited to learn about a promotion right before Christmas. My professional engineering test is looming in the distance, and I'm getting more and more nervous by the day about that career milestone I need to pass. I've been debating on review courses, which run at over $1,000, and I've finally decided to study on my own... it'll be cheaper for me to retake the test if I don't pass than pay for the review course. I just need to push through my procrastination and actually start studying. For the last 4 months I've been saying that come January I was going to stop wedding planning and start studying. Now that January is here, I don't really want to start studying. I would like to keep wedding planning forever. Time to draw on some will power... back to that prioritizing word I started this post with.
And that brings me to my real time sink lately... wedding planning. I swear it's consuming every free particle of my brain right now. I'm having more fun with it than I should admit, and getting things checked off the list by the day. But I do feel like I've gotten enough done that I can take a small break now until I get this test out of my way. And somehow with everything else that's going on we are starting to house hunt. As much as we try to put it off (we both know that if we had wanted to buy a house this year, we should have eloped and forgotten about the wedding... but deposits are paid so there's no turning back now), I think we are both anxious to get out of this rental and find a place of our own. Even though where we are renting is bigger than our place in Seattle by about 140 square feet, it doesn't feel much bigger, and it's really lacking in storage. What I wouldn't give for a garage, or at least a place to store our bikes.
With that ramble I think I'll bring this post to a close. An adios to 2012 and a recommitment to keep this journal about my health, life, and love going into 2013. With a renewed surge of energy and hope. In our household we are entering this year with a much greater appreciation for what it really means to be healthy, a strengthened feeling of love for each other and our partnership in this crazy thing called life, and pure excitement about what the year holds for us. 2012 has been a year of challenges that we have faced head on, and I know that 2013 has amazing things in store for us. Much love and happy new year.